Holy Crap

Oct 29, 2010 22 comments.

If there’s a lesson to be learned

it’s a hard one to take

Once it falls apart it’s so hard to unbreak

so don’t you ever make that mistake…

Tell her you love her

How much you love her

Don’t turn away

Don’t be afraid

Tell her you love her

WOW, it has been a while. Last time I posted it was New Year, now? God, we’re approaching that time once again.

My god, how things change… I always reject this little ‘one liner’ people come back with, but it sums up my life right now: It was good, ’til it wasn’t.

Yup, single again. What can I say? I don’t even know how I feel. It’s almost been six weeks and my heart still aches. Heart ache sucks… if someone put a box in front of me with a button and told me if I press it I can erase all memories of her, I’d press it in a heart beat.

According to her, I sucked. I was horrible. I was bad. Our relationship consisted of nothing but fights. But to be honest, I can’t remember once in the past 6 months we fought? Only when she went over seas… I was working, she was in a different time zone, communication wasn’t there, fights started.

But to me, she was beautiful.. she was anything butf horrible and our relationship was awesome. I loved her so much… I still do. I just don’t know what to do. She ruined it for me… I don’t think I could trust her with my heart again, or whatever is left of it.

I just hope she’s happy. I just hope she’s smiling… ’cause when she smiles it’s so god damn beautiful.

Love, Maria

Holy Crap

Oct 29, 2010 25 comments.

If there’s a lesson to be learned

it’s a hard one to take

Once it falls apart it’s so hard to unbreak

so don’t you ever make that mistake…

Tell her you love her

How much you love her

Don’t turn away

Don’t be afraid

Tell her you love her

WOW, it has been a while. Last time I posted it was New Year, now? God, we’re approaching that time once again.

My god, how things change… I always reject this little ‘one liner’ people come back with, but it sums up my life right now: It was good, ’til it wasn’t.

Yup, single again. What can I say? I don’t even know how I feel. It’s almost been six weeks and my heart still aches. Heart ache sucks… if someone put a box in front of me with a button and told me if I press it I can erase all memories of her, I’d press it in a heart beat.

According to her, I sucked. I was horrible. I was bad. Our relationship consisted of nothing but fights. But to be honest, I can’t remember once in the past 6 months we fought? Only when she went over seas… I was working, she was in a different time zone, communication wasn’t there, fights started.

But to me, she was beautiful.. she was anything butf horrible and our relationship was awesome. I loved her so much… I still do. I just don’t know what to do. She ruined it for me… I don’t think I could trust her with my heart again, or whatever is left of it.

I just hope she’s happy. I just hope she’s smiling… ’cause when she smiles it’s so god damn beautiful.

Love, Maria

It’s a new year

Jan 9, 2010 47 comments.

Wow, 2010…. can you believe it? It’s all gone so fast, but then again, we say that every year! :P

I’m working on a new layout. This was meant to be temp layout but then it stayed longer than anticipated. I just got so busy with Christmas and New Year that it all got the better of me.

I’m trying to expand my horizons a little and try different things (in terms of my graphics) so if things start looking weird, feel free to tell me! Sometimes I go a little bit too far one way! :P

Hmmm, you know what? I’m actually surprised how well I cleaned up this Christmas. I thought it would be one of those dud Christmas’ because everything in terms of my family stability has been thrown up and muddled sideways… but no, I did well. Great purfume, a nice outfit… money… which bought me more outfits and a $100 giftcard that was soooo shocking (from my girlfriends mother) which I bought like 3 outfits with and all these accessories! :o I’m happy with everything and I feel so materialistically full!

Anyway, how was your Christmas and New Year? What did you get?

Love Maria